Ok seriously I LOVE group!! haha That is so ridiculous but true. I have met such amazing women and I feel like we are such great friends now. After the meeting a bunch of us just sat and chatted. I loved it! I want to hang out with them more often because they are so inspiring. I encourage you all if you do not already attend an LDS addiction recovery group to find one and go. It's so uplifting and spiritual.
I feel so blessed lately and know that Heavenly Father is watching over me and my family. Life can get so crazy and out of control but if we keep going and persevere we will be blessed. Who knows when, but we will. Sometimes it seems so unfair what we may have to endure but everyone in this life is dealt a different hand and everyone deals with tribulation. Even the prophet and apostles of the Church deal with tribulation. No one is exempt unfortunately. Overcoming pornography addiction is DIFFICULT to say the least. It is exhausting, stressful, and burdensome. Hours are spent crying, hating, wondering "why me?" and eventually forgiving. Our loved ones with the addiction experience similar emotions. This is DIFFICULT beyond belief for them. They are embarassed and ashamed for what has become of their life. They want so badly not to hurt us (the wives/loved ones) but they are addicted. They are good men with good hearts. They are! But this is a horribly addicting addiction that requires a lot to overcome. Take care of yourself and your family. Support your husband for his efforts in overcoming this. He is still a good man and he never knew how badly he would hurt you with this addiction. We are amazing women to deal with such an embarassing addiction but we can do it. We can become better. It takes time. It takes effort and it's not always going to be comfortable. Keep fighting. Heavenly Father is watching over you and you will be blessed abundantly whether it is in this life or the next. Be proud of the beautiful and amazing woman that you are! Because you are!