Monday, February 6, 2012
Life is Unfair
I have recently been informed about some close friends trials. The trials and hardships they are enduring right now are beyond my comprehension. My heart aches for what they are enduring. They are amazing people and I look at them and think, "That is so sad and unfair." I commend them for the strength and determination they continue to show. They will become an even more amazing person than they already are if they continue to endure and trust in the Lord. As I look at what some of these people are going through I think, "Dang, I will take my trial any day over that one." I feel like my trials are not even comparable to what they are going through. At the same time I remember a friend telling me (without any knowledge of what was going on in my life) how she could never stay married if her husband ever looked at porn. I don't even recall how I responded to be honest. I look at this situation and realize that we are all dealt what we can handle and what will benefit us the most. If you ever think "I can't handle this" or "Why didn't I get a different trial" maybe look around and realize that there are worse things out there. Someone always has it better and someone always has it worse. Trials are individulized for our specific needs, and what will help us grow the most. I am learning that one of the many reasons I was given this trial of supporting my husband through his pornography addiction recovery is to become an advocate against this plague. I have grown as a person, the communication in my marriage has improved immensely, and now I am doing my best to advocate against this plague that so many are entrapped in. We will experience many trials in our life. Some large and at times unbearable. Some smaller yet frustrating. I have realized that in the moment of trial, man I hate it. As I begin to surface and catch my breath I begin to see the purpose of the trial. I have experienced many trials in my life and will continue to endure more and I feel like they have made me the person that I am. I guess what I am trying to get at through all this rambling is that we all suffer hardships. Life may seem unfair and maybe it is. All we can do is trust our Heavenly Father, learn, grow, help others, and become better overall. Whatever path you are on, continue to perservere. We are on this Earth to learn and I have certainly learned a lot from this specific trial and know you have/will too.